Fragility

I have thoughts, lots of them. All day, everyday. Too often, they keep me awake at night trying to sort them out, make correct decisions, blah, blah, blah... So, I am going to try to manage them outside my brain, share with you fine people. I was going to start a new blog, but decided not to. Our blog is called The Angele 4 and I'm one of the 4, so I'm throwing it all together. Pictures and thoughts all in one place. This week the main topic on my mind is fragility. It was brought to mind by death unfortunately. Two women and one little girl. One women was a lady I'd never met, but had seen comment on a friends facebook status' here and there. One was a girl I graduated from high school with and never saw again. And, the little girl was gunned down by a person who had no regard for life at all.

Laura St. John died on January 3, 2011 in an auto accident. I'd never met her and had never had her affect my life until she died. Our friend Keith posted about her passing and I read about her and her life. Wow. She lived. Really lived. She was beautiful, adventurous and loved by many. Keith also posted an article she'd written about her son and the unfairness he was facing on the football team. Here is one of my favorite parts:

"Being in the emotional state of anger or sadness means we are not thinking clearly. It means we are acting against a peaceful heart."

Anjy Drew Elkins was a girl I went to high school with. I remember her as nice, a bit on the quiet side, but a good person. I hadn't thought of her at all to be honest until a website for our class showed her to have passed away. Again, today Iwas reminded of it. A friend posted on facebook that it was Anjy's birthday today. She was killed in a car accident in March of 2006. Her dad wrote an amazing story about it all in the Bryan/College Station Eagle and I read it today. She worked with Indigent Services and was adored by the people she helped.

The girl was Christina Taylor Green. She was born on 9/11/01 and was killed a few days ago in Arizona. This little girl had big dreams and lived her short little life to the fullest.

As I sat and cried for these lives that have ended, I was reminded that life is fragile. It can be gone in a split second through no fault of your own. I don't really do resolutions, they never quite make it to February, but this year, I'm making one. A life resolution. Everyday I will remember that life is fleeting and fragile. So, I will try my best to stop judging so quickly, to stop and read when my kids ask me to, play games more and do a few less chores. I will do my best to make more time for making my life what I want it to be. More action, less complaining. I won't be the most positive person on the planet overnight, but you have to start making changes or you stay right where you are.

The ABC's of Life from Laura:

Accept differences, Be kind, Count your blessings, Dream, Express thanks, Forgive, Give freely, Harm no one, Imagine more, Jettison anger, Keep confidences, Love truly, Master something, Nurture hope, Open your mind, Pack lightly, Quell rumors, Reciprocate, Seek wisdom, Touch hearts, Understand, Value truth, Win graciously, Xeriscape, Yearn for peace, Zealously support a worthy cause.